decision?

i'm not going to smt...may be it's already destinied..i will never go to boarding school...but it's alright..may be there's a 'hikmah' behind all this...plus, i know that school is just a school...it's not like 'oo..klau skola bese x bgoz..' rite now.. i just need to study hard n smart..coz i've promise myself that if i don't get any boarding school.. i want to study abroad after my spm..just like my brother.. if it's possible for him....it's possible for me too...aja aja fighting!!